It is intriguing and challenging to try and paint something that is real but we cannot see. Clearly painting the inner workings of cancer presents such a challenge. My most recent painting on this theme is on lung cancer. I am working with x-rays and scans that I have found on the internet to help me get a sense of what the cells look like and how they move and grow.
The scans give a vivid sense of colour and movement. There is a morbid fascination to see what they look like and how much they take over and in time overwhelm vital organs. In looking at the scans and images without expert medical knowledge it is difficult to know what is the actual cancerous growth and what would be normal cell growth.
While the theme is morbid it still gives great pleasure to capture the movement and growth, to capture the energy and vitality of the cells. While painting this particular picture a friend of mine called to the house and gave very positive comments about the lovely colours, shapes and movement in the painting. She told me it reminded her of Monet's lilies. Needless to say I was greatly chuffed to think that my painting would suggest a resemblance to such famous works. Initially I did not say what I was painting but after a while I felt she should know what I was trying to capture. She was shocked to think that she had admired an image of cancer and spoke of how it gave her the creeps to think that there is a strange beauty to it.
Her feelings reflect my own thoughts on this theme as I started these paintings to give myself a chance to engage in a different way with the illness that affects so many lives and that has brought sadness and death to many people close to me. I feel threatened and frightened by it and yet fascinated by the images of energy and vitality that come up in the scans.
Painting gives me a chance to deal with illness and death in a more thoughtful and therapeutic way. The use of colours convey many different feelings and moods. Traditionally black is associated with death and I have used it as the background colour in this painting, which would suit in ways but in fact I am not happy with it as I think that it deadens the painting. I plan to use a dark blue instead which I think will complement the lighter colours better and will give greater depth to the canvas.
In recent weeks I have noticed in Cork that there is an advertising campaign about the dangers of smoking and how 1 in every 2 smokers will die of cancer related illnesses. It is a very stark message and tries to drive home the dangers of smoking.
My paintings look at this theme from a different angle. I am not trying to convey the fear and danger of cancer but instead to show the intriguing energy and growth of these cells. The challnege that I also want to overcome is to give a sense of time with this illness. This will require a new layout to some canvasses as I will have to have panels within them to show different stages. I am also planning to put a few canvasses together to show the inter-relation between organs and body functions and how breakdown in one area has serious effects in other areas. The challenge is capture different facets of the illnesses and create an overall connection and theme.
The other challenge which I have not yet started to address is the effects it has on the sufferers and their families, and also those near and dear to them. From my own knowledge and experience there are many highs and lows in dealing with cancer and it also gives fascinating insights into how people think, feel, act & react to the different situations and stages they find themselves in when cancer affects someone close to them.
Time is often the great enemy when cancer comes along. It will be a big challenge to convey that in the paintings that I plan to do in the weeks and months ahead.
The scans give a vivid sense of colour and movement. There is a morbid fascination to see what they look like and how much they take over and in time overwhelm vital organs. In looking at the scans and images without expert medical knowledge it is difficult to know what is the actual cancerous growth and what would be normal cell growth.
While the theme is morbid it still gives great pleasure to capture the movement and growth, to capture the energy and vitality of the cells. While painting this particular picture a friend of mine called to the house and gave very positive comments about the lovely colours, shapes and movement in the painting. She told me it reminded her of Monet's lilies. Needless to say I was greatly chuffed to think that my painting would suggest a resemblance to such famous works. Initially I did not say what I was painting but after a while I felt she should know what I was trying to capture. She was shocked to think that she had admired an image of cancer and spoke of how it gave her the creeps to think that there is a strange beauty to it.
Her feelings reflect my own thoughts on this theme as I started these paintings to give myself a chance to engage in a different way with the illness that affects so many lives and that has brought sadness and death to many people close to me. I feel threatened and frightened by it and yet fascinated by the images of energy and vitality that come up in the scans.
Painting gives me a chance to deal with illness and death in a more thoughtful and therapeutic way. The use of colours convey many different feelings and moods. Traditionally black is associated with death and I have used it as the background colour in this painting, which would suit in ways but in fact I am not happy with it as I think that it deadens the painting. I plan to use a dark blue instead which I think will complement the lighter colours better and will give greater depth to the canvas.
In recent weeks I have noticed in Cork that there is an advertising campaign about the dangers of smoking and how 1 in every 2 smokers will die of cancer related illnesses. It is a very stark message and tries to drive home the dangers of smoking.
My paintings look at this theme from a different angle. I am not trying to convey the fear and danger of cancer but instead to show the intriguing energy and growth of these cells. The challnege that I also want to overcome is to give a sense of time with this illness. This will require a new layout to some canvasses as I will have to have panels within them to show different stages. I am also planning to put a few canvasses together to show the inter-relation between organs and body functions and how breakdown in one area has serious effects in other areas. The challenge is capture different facets of the illnesses and create an overall connection and theme.
The other challenge which I have not yet started to address is the effects it has on the sufferers and their families, and also those near and dear to them. From my own knowledge and experience there are many highs and lows in dealing with cancer and it also gives fascinating insights into how people think, feel, act & react to the different situations and stages they find themselves in when cancer affects someone close to them.
Time is often the great enemy when cancer comes along. It will be a big challenge to convey that in the paintings that I plan to do in the weeks and months ahead.
